The first song in the video by Lumineers Hey Ho played in the car every time we visited Adam and would often have me in tears as it felt like it was written for him. I would dream of being able to use it in a photomontage for his birthday but I don't think in those long 13 weeks that we would ever be lucky enough to do so. Its a strange existence regularly going to a hospital, its almost as if you have entered a different dimension in time and space. Its as if time has slowed and every day becomes a year and every week a lifetime.
It was an incredible feeling waking up on his birthday and knowing we had made it! We had survived! It caught my breath knowing how different it could have been. We were the family unit I dreamed about and never believed we would ever be again. I think it was when my dad said "I told you we would look back in a year and wonder what all the fuss was about" and I could have cried. I remember him saying it over and over at the time trying to reassure us that it would be ok, but it just seemed impossible; like an arrow in my heart of what would never be. But it has and I wanted this tibute to bring hope to everyone going through the nightmare of having their baby separated in a NICU or SCBU. Where there is life there IS hope!
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